I seek loneliness.
I’m not the kind of person to be offended when someone ignores me. I’m not the kind of person who wants to always be out with friends. I’m not the kind of person who can’t stand not seeing one person, not even my parents and family.
I think I’m abnormal. It’s just weird that when I look at myself from the outside, I’m actually a very sociable and relational person. I know a lot of people, however, I cannot say that I have a very deep relationship with them. I can tell a person about my history, my family problems, deep problems and feelings and still be detached from them. I try to be attached, but I just can’t. I can never say to a person, “I miss you” genuinely, because at the back of my mind, it’s quite a hassle for me to make and effort to see her/him. I’m selfish in a way that I keep to myself a lot of times…
I like to be alone most of the time. I don’t have a bestfriend, a superfriend, a bff or whatever, and I can’t stand the idea of having one. Of having to maintain a friendship like that…
I don’t understand why.
— Taylor Swift
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I cannot say that I’m her fan, cause I don’t follow her stuff or anything. But Taylor Swift is just adorable. I find her to be someone that is genuine in her kindness.
